well, leaving wasn't without me your best plan and yeah, that felt exactly like that but i kinda get it i guess, don't get me wrong i still hate you for not talking about it and abandoning me

yeah i remember that every time we went on holiday to a new place you'd just get lost at some point i thought you did it on purpose just so i could come and rescue you

i know trust me i know — see this is why we dont let me make plans on my own and you did all the planning i'm shit at plans... i just... i thought it would be selfish of me to ask you to chose between me and our families so i made the decision because i'm stupid and scared — i shouldve let you decide what you wanted to do instead of acting as selfish as our parents i'm sorry

i have to admit it, sometimes i did that on purpose

yeah, i have to say i was proud of that wedding plans, would've been the best. you leaving, it felt like somehow you stoped loving me or something. but now, its more like you didn't trust me enough with all of that but hey we already talked about this

and i would've chosen you without thinking, you know that

ah see i knew it !!

like i said you're really hard to forget and i never did stop loving you, i've loved you since the moment i saw you and not because my parents told me to but because you're you, you're my person even if i've screwed everything up you'll always be my person to me...

see the little voice inside my head told me you wouldn't chose me and i— didn't want to see your face telling me that you're not coming with me... ironic i know

i can't make it make sense it was a stupid in the moment decision

i liked having you around back then

you could've at least like leave a note or something to tell me that, maybe we wouldn't be in that situation - i get that you were scared and everything but dude you screwed up so badly i'm not even sure i could forgive you after a long while

yeah, doesn't make any sense indeed, specially bc you knew that everyone elses didn't matter as much as you